tomorrow is a year

tomorrow.

i'm a year away from that heart.breaking night.

it was the 27th of march last year.

--our batch party.

it was the day i decided to get things over.

i, myself knew he never loved me, never did. never will..
but i couldn't stop myself from loving him.

so i thought,

maybe. if i get really heart broken--

maybe. my heart would save itself from the hurt.

so that night, i decided to talk things with him.

after a few tries and pushes,

as one band was playing/singing this 'Let Me Be The One' song..

i got right up and went to where he was sitting.

i told him i love him.

not directly. not with words.

okay. so i wasn't able to actually tell him.

but i know he understood it.

i asked him to dump me.

and cleared it out that i wasn't courting.

i just wanted him to dump me--to kill me.

then. he uttered the words:

"Sorry....."

i was deafened by the song.
i wasn't able to clearly hear him.

i was like: "ano?!"

so he repeated it.

"Sorry. sorry talaga........"

then the song came to a chorus.

*wow* such timing..

it felt horrible yet relieving.

it was the first time i felt like my heart was

being shred into pieces. like it was being hammered by a mace.

like an old wound was being cut again..

yet i turned to him while holding back the tears.

and.. i thanked him. it was true. i was thankful.

but it was also deeply painful.

i ran away. my guy friends caught up to me.

i just cried. and cried.

now i know what they felt like whenever

the girl they love dumps them.

now i know.

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here's a stolen pic of me..
this was taken when i was almost over crying.

almost. but never was--

living up with the challenge

so how's my life?
maybe you think i'm already giving up, eh?
well.. i'll raise the bets.
i can still survive *ROAR*

it's been what? a week and 3days
since they both got here.
and i'm trying to sleep early.
[but ain't getting near human early]

but imma brag to you.
i've been waking up as early as my body could.
i usually get up around 9-1oam.
that's fairly human, right?

and it's pretty difficult.
but i am going up with the challenge.
i can do this. gambatte~!

Biscuit Teacher and Star Candy

this is the korean tv series that
i'm currently hooked to~
*giggles*

but, it's dated back in year2oo5.
anyhow, idc.

'cause Park Tae In /star candy
or korean actor, Gong Yoo is really cute.
or should i say handsome?
*giggles*
^^♥ and, he is hot too~ :]

he is the loveteam of Yoon Eun Hye in the Tv series 'coffee prince'.
remember him?
*giggles*

kyaaaaaa~!!
so love.♥

my diary2

*laughs*
gomen ne?
it's 3:57am.
wahahah~

and the other day,
my goals, wasn't achieved.
yesterday, i overslept.
from 12mornight to 4pm.
*sheesh*

i know.
so much for being a hypersomniac.
anyway,
last night, i was starting to fix
the master's bedroom.

hopefully, later this morning,
i can finish it and move to the other room.
i also plan to finish all my laundry.

but for now,
i just want to finish watching
this 2oo5/2oo6 korean tv series.
i'm not sure about the title though.

jaa ne~ :]

[challenge. part2.o]

[6:13am]~13march
wahaha* i was able to finish my laundry yesterday.
i also fixed the cabinets.
my sister's mess. and my clothes.
*smug* ^______________^

sleepy? no.
just tired.

[challenge part 2.1]

my diary

it's 7:35 am.
i haven't slept.
i'll try not to sleep~
i want to clean the rooms.
or atleast finish all the laundry.

*aah~
this entry will be my diary.
well, i'll try to make it as my diary.
*sigh*

maybe i'll write this afternoon,
or tonight.
let's just see what i can accomplish today, eh?
^______^

[challenge part 1.0]
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right now.
time check: 2:39pm

i slept. fine. i'm sorry.
but now, i'm starting on my laundry.
maybe after a few hours,
i'll be able to clean atleast the master's bedroom.
i hope. *grins*

well, goodluck for me~!! ^^

[challenge part 1.1]

the challenge

*awwwww.
starting today, i have to practice to be more human.
i have to be awake atleast 3/4 of the day.
[which is impossible because i sleep 3/4 of each day]

and as if that's not difficult,
i have to start cleaning up.
the two bedrooms, and other places where
my sister's mess piled up.
[how's that for a challenge, eh?]

this upcoming summer,
i don't know how, but i have to.
specially with my parents home.
[specifically my mom]
she would always want us awake early in the morning.

which is really hard for me.
and, whenever she doesn't see me
in the living room or helping them with the chores.
she would immediately bust in my room
and find me dozing the day off.
[she would get mad..*giggles*]

well, everybody else in the house knows my routine.
wake up. eat. sleep. wake up. eat. sleep.
wake up. take a bath~ sleep.
*laughs*
i know, i admit it. i'm lazy.
i'm a total BUM.
so what? i'm a hypersomniac.
and it's fun..

besides, i don't have anything else to do.
and i honestly don't like doing chores.
but i have to.
and at times, [very seldom]
i do it without being told.
*grins*
but that doesn't defy the fact that i'm lazy.

so that's my challenge.
more waking hours. more working hours
*urgh~
how do i do that?!
*kyaaaaaa~!!! [><]

joke time

*giggles*
last feb28, i had to postpone my haircut
for a trip to tagaytay highlands with my relatives.

and one of my aunt has this awesome
NIKON SLR~
(fyi, i've always drooled over those awesome cameras)
anyway, she's very kind
so i got the chance to experience
taking shots using that superbly awesome cam.

and ofcourse,
to have a remembrance,
me & my sister took pictures of ourselves
with the SLR.

and a while ago,

i just did this awesome funny thing.

you see, my prinxipe's name is: nikko.

(pretty close to the camera's brand, eh?)

and do you have a guess on what i did?

well, let's see if you got it right.

*grins* ^_______^

a chat with the DJ's

awwwwww*
how i wish i have webcam at home.
so the Dj's would chat with me too..

lucky are those panext who have
webcams because they also have the DJs' attention..
*pouts*

anyway.
atleast i get to view brewrats cam.
^_________^*grins*


here are some shots
of Dj tado and DJ ramon~