unexpected

i guess i was always the pessimist.
i was expecting the worst so that i don't get hurt if it doesn't work out.

but it turns out, i did pretty well.
well, somehow, it is what i was really hoping for.
i spent arduous hours and hours and hours
working on my thesis.
 artwork-wise or thesis book-wise.
i don't work halfheartedly on things i've already decided to.

so, anyway.
m'really glad it paid off well.
that my panel (i finally got a good set of jurors)
saw my work, my efforts and skills (and everything else that i put into it)

a 92, a 96, and a 97.



m'happy :]

i think, i have already forgotten how to write.

i think, i have already forgotten how to write.

i think, i have already forgotten how to write.

i think, i have forgotten how to write.

i think, i have forgotten how to write.

i have forgotten how to write.

i have forgotten how to write.

i have forgotten.

i have forgotten.

i.. forgot.

as usual~

money isn't a big thing. philosophically speaking.
it shouldn't be the center of anyone's world.
nor should it be the root of fear, of restrictions, of weakness.

however, right now.
it's what i need.

for my thesis. my requirements completion.
my tuition fee. graduation fee.

an endless list of payments that needs to be settled.


*sigh*

as usual~
i am feeling down because of this.

the most *insert undescribable feeling* field trip ever~

last february 16

was the most *insert undescribable feeling* field trip ever~

waiting and walking.

eyes well-fed.

first time experiences.

beautiful scenery.

bus rides.

tricycle rides.

cold breeze, warm sun.

snuggled sleep.

unending food trip.

stories. laughter.

hugs and cuddles.

his comforting heat.

his soft loving hands.

i am very happy.

i will never forget.

and i still can't move on~

tado jimenez is gone. for real.
i've always wanted to meet him in person.
whether in their dj's booth or in his shop.
but i never went there.
and now i will never meet him.

rest in peace~
you will be missed.

i'd like to stay in this ride

they were sitting right in front of me,

cuddling close despite the low air-conditioning.

she started purring, he softly purred back.

she stopped and fought to hide a smile.

he grinned, and i watch her melt beside him.

surprisingly, i wasn't annoyed.
i was enjoying the scene.

they seem to be very happy~

she is happy.

LUNCHless

it's 5.27 pm on skipp~
and yet, i haven't eaten lunch.
so caught up with editing my storybook (thesis),
and was trying to make it on time so that i could have it printed today.
but still, here i am.. still editing.
(well, typing right now)

honestly, m'so hungry,

but the world doesn't care.

m'hungry.

but i still have sooooo many things to do.

jerome is right.

i always sacrifice myself, my health..

i know it's a bad thing.

but it's my studies, it's my grades.

i didn't run for so long only to slow myself and lose.

why do i think i like this?

why are my priorities just.. *sigh*

sometimes,

i think i don't really know

what's important in my life.

back to reality,

and back to my work.

should i continue on working lunchless?

or should i eat now?