i don't understand myself

i've already mentioned about the history of shroom, right?

but up until now, i don't know why it even started.
*laughs* ^^' *sigh*

if you are to ask me, what's with him~
i don't really know what to say.

it's just that, i think about him, most of the time without knowing it.
i miss him at times, especially when he doesn't text me~

but i don't like LIKE him..
*maybe not just yet?* but i don't--right now, i don't.
m'just happy when he's there. haha~

plus, it's funny how m'being really open about what m'feeling towards him.
not just to you, or myself, but even to him.
whenever he asks me, i tell him.
how embarassing, right?
*ugh~ furstrated again, eh?

in the midst of writing a letter

a lot has happened.
i feel like m'lost. but i do know what to do.
& i think i know where to go.
but i don't know how to start though~
so there.

i wrote a superbly long letter to an old bestfriend, alipin.

haha~ *sigh*
a neutral ear to hear my thoughts & feelings.

sulky face~

so this is what i look like when m'trying to be sulky :3

do i look mad? m'trying to be mad & cute there.. haha~

so hard *eep~ >< haha.

coz i thought shroom fell asleep.

truns out he just had to go somewhere & do something.

haha.

still, m'liking this photo very much :3

SUSHI & ONIGIRI

so last sunday, i made some sushis & onigiris....on my nails!

♥^^ *giggles*

here they are. ^_________^

 what to do this coming sunday?

someone requested for monokoro boo!! i hope i can make it :]

so lately :'> shroom~!!

well, lately.
just before xmas break started, i was sort of getting close to this certain guy.
a new classmate. & then a new friend.
who would always contact me for inquiries regarding our plates.
nothing special. so i would answer back.
at school, he'd usually call me by my first name, rather than aya.
he said he preferred it ^^" okay?

so at the last few days, we'd be texting a lot.
asking about our own progress on every plate left.
& then, he'd call. to update or ask.
and that's that.

last day. wednesday..14th of dec, he was sick.
i sort of felt it was me since we'd talk in class..
*i was sick for a week or so~ ^^
so i sort of helped him. he was absent earlier that day.
& we'd update each other til deadline for layout.

when he came, i was at ease.
he was there. for a while, i sat next to him.
on the top of 2 mounts of monoblock chairs ^^
i was comfortable with him.

after that, when him & his friends (including hyung) left,
i sort of *missed him.
got home, hours passed. still thought of him.
& when he texted me mornight, i smiled as he said sorry for being unable to reply & said his goodnight ^^"
I SMILED?! what the heck is going on with me?

reality check: i don't crush on him or anything.
& he's 2 years younger than i am! xP
but i sort of like his company..ugh~
a day went on & he kept on popping in & out of my head like a mushroom.
until given such time that we keep on texting,
& yes, i told him what's happening. haha ^^
*how emabarassing, right?* xD

anyhow, up until now, we'd talk every now & then. *most of the time*
sometimes, he would even call me :'>
haha~ i like talking to him.
..i wonder if we'll still be this way in person..

*sigh* anyway,
m'happy to make a new friend like him. [s.s]
haha~ but i don't think we'd be as close as i am with doodle, or alipin,
or even hyung.. that's gotta be hard if i do that.
i mean, m'too attached to a lot of people lately.
i can't be with him like that.
not that i don't like him or anything. ^^"
it's just going to be too risky on my part.


i'll end it right here.
haha~ SHROOM~!

still owe you that time pent shortly with doodle ^^'

new piercings~ >:]

my new piercings~ FINALLY >:]
since the day i learned that i can't have a tattoo (religion.wise),
i decided i'll just have additional piercings..

after consultation with dad & having approval from him & mom,
i was already ecstatic of the thought.

& then a while ago, after watching movie at sm manila
with ar.em & kalok. & then ar.em & i strolled around,
we thought i should get my piercings.
& as quick as that they got it on~

2 add'l piercings on my left ear.
AWESOME.
although, it got red & hot right after..
s'okay. m'okay.

but, that isn't the CLIMAX of today~
^____________^
see that grin?
i'll post it on some other time *laughs*

wacky faces

so mia introduced me to this site the other day,
cameroid.com
it allows you to play with your webcam
*with ready.made effects*

mia & i were making goofy faces on the cam
when mom suddenly got closer to take a picture with us.
LOOK :]

mom. me. mia.

cute, eh? ^_____^
haha~ i like me here. i just shook my hair from a ponytail,
& that;s the best my face can get ^^"

i got ladybugs eating my nails

so i had to cut my nails really short after i saw a long crack on my left thumb T^T
they say it's okay though, i could still paint it cute~ & they actually like this. ^^"

anyhow, m'changing it later on..
*what to do next? panda? watermelon? newsprint?

still undecided >____<

16 lives left ^_____^

so, last 14th of june 2o11, i had my first road accident.
YES--the night of my 1st day back in school,

the billiard game with two jeeps in front of our very subdivision.

anyhow, after that night,

a cat loses 1 of it's 9lives.

9 multiplied by 2, that mkaes it 18, & then subtract 1,
in total.. i have 17 lives left. lots to spare!! yeay~
this is AWESOME >:]

never mind my gay picture ^^

m'just loving those cat ears :3

my starry starry night

so i was inspired by the stars last weekend.

so i painted my nails.

how cute right? :]

no? too GAY?

yes. i know. i'm sorry~ ^^'
but hey.
i sort of like it..
even if it's quite feminine for my taste,

atleast it's monochrome ^^

my strawberry flavored nails~♥

so~ how do you like my nails? :]♥
i know it's very girly.girl--& it's so not me.. but err~ idk.
i don't have any good black & white nail polish for my base,
so i just decided to this design for this week. ^^

*the making*

m'wearing ipods

mi ipods look a bit funny.
it's my first trial of doing this design though--give me some credit. ^^
*laughs*
how come i don't take pictures of my nail art designs? xP

one semester after~

so.. one sem after that surprising accident

that i had during my 1st day as a 2nd year student

here's how my injury looks like~

there's still a hint of bruise. a *growing* mump inside..
it stings when it's cold--& it hurts when i get tired.
ugh* ~_~"
can't i at least use this to get away from my last PE?
i don't want to stain my awesome record. *groans*

waiting..nothing to do

what's up with me not being able to blog?
& i feel like i've missed out on my physical diary

for like a week or two already ><
i suck. T^T

so m'currently waiting for a really good new close friend, hyung.
bored? yes. haha~ ^^' *sigh*

ignorance is a murderer

he called out for you, he called out for help;

he's been telling you about his disturbed thoughts

but you chose to ignore it instead.

why? are you not his friend?

until one he decided to quit—on everything

and now you'll never know what was going in his head.

samuel larsen

loving sam more & morrre..
& when i read his birthdate from wiki (august 28, 1991)
WOAH! he's only a few months older than me.
YIEEEE~♥

my hero--my crush ^^

i feel like FLASH is really handsome.
so i really like him--and he's FAST. the adrenaline rush must be so thrilling xD

SMILE :]

a cake that can make you smile :]
* see its smile? *

mi weird tongue

i remember a year or two ago, when i accidentally bit my tongue.
well, i thought t'was just bleeding a bit.
but then i felt a little something inside my mouth.
i pulled out my tongue & saw a teeny bit of it dettached.
OYES. i bit a part of it. ^^"
here's a picture of how mi weird tongue looks like now:

~WAE?

i don' understand..

why can't i seem to post anything on my blog..?

i just want to blog about the accident..

but i can't T^T

first day..? worst day :|

1st day high? SO NOT TRUE.

ikaw ba naman mabangga, pauwi ka nalang, sa tapat pa ng subdivision mo..
..kamustasa kalabasa?? o_0'

aynaku* atleast swollen thigh lang at pasa.. wait* PAASAAAA~ @_@
wala naman daw nabaling buto ayun sa initial reading ng xray..
although, not quite sure kung makapasok ako tomorrow..
ANO BA YAN?! *kababalik ko lang ng school, eto na. ~~"
*sigh*

THANKS sa mga concern, nagtext at pati sa mga tumawag..
okay na naman po ako guys.. buhay na buhay.. injured nalang ^^'
magingat sa pagtawid. ingat sa mga barumbadong jeep xP


PS: natuluyang nasagasaan narin. one experience is enough though ^^'

an open letter to my lola,

"lola, i'm sorry.
i'm sorry for not being able to make enough time for you.
sorry for not making it on time.

i know i should be happy for you..
for you may now rest withought feeling pain.

i'm sorry cause m'greedy.
because i'm mad at myself.
because i wasn't able to kiss you for the last time.
because you werent able to see me for the last time.

i'm so sorry. i love you.
may you have peace now..
i love you so much. & i miss you already.."

the superhero who saved the dead spider

every time i try to recall of events in my life that happened because of my sheer stupidity,
one of the memories that i remember most is that of my JP and a spider~

"it was an early weekend morning and i decided to do my laundry first.
so i rose, grabbed my soiled clothes from the rack and slid JP
(my all-time Jurassic Phone; now you know where JP came from)
in my left-breast pocket as i went to the laundry area.

i turned on the faucet and watched the water slowly filling the tub--
i was gazing at it for a time when i saw a helpless spider caught in the current.
kind as i am, i dove in and reached for it with my hand.
how reckless was i--that i chose to save the spider over JP
when it accidentally fell from my pocket into the tub.

and to my dismay, the spider was already dead.
i was flabbergasted (*word--1st heard from twinx. 1st used here. meaning: dumbfounded)
i realized i should save JP quickly before it gets short.curcuit or something.
& i was able to save him just right in time *whew*"

but you know, i learned something--
something deeper than check the spider if it's still alive before you try to save it
i learned something more..although i realized it a little later,
i guess i'll just share it for others to reflect on..

sometimes, we care for some people too much, that we are blinded~
we tend to overlook that they are indeed taking us for granted.
but y'know what, we can't blame them if they don't feel as much as we do for them..
we just have to realize on our own that ..THEY ARE NOT WORTH IT.

so don't go pretending like your some superhero
who tries to save & help everyone (let alone the world),
while they don't even bother to know who you are behind that mask.
sometimes, you just have to be there and save yourself and let them be~
I LEARNED THAT THE HARD WAY. (multiplied by infinity)

"O-SHOES ko po~!!"

 
the first i met this amazing pair was way back when i was still in la salle.
i was walking alone when i came across this guy who was wheeling like a serpentine towards my direction.
i was stopped by his dazzling shoes while he slowed..[probably because of my bangs]

from then on, i told myself i'd own a pair..
&now that i have money in my pockets, i started saving and searching where i can buy, unfortunately, there's no store that sells HEELYS.. *sigh*

now, the only way tgat i can get is to........ask my tita to buy me..
*sobsob*

here are the ones i've laid my eyes on..

HEY~

i thought i'd never be able to update on you..m'so sorry..
quick summary: m'now a regular employee..however i haven't done my official signing but i am indeed regularized..haha xD
m'excited to get my piercings done..hair's been straight for quite some time now~
waitibg for my flat black contats, still planning on how to get the colors on my hair done and lastly, still saving up for my wheeled shoes, braces and/or dslr.. *sighs*

so much to do yet so little time x|
i'll let you catch up on me whenever my hands are free, 'kay?

a fresh start for everyone,

goodnight 2010--good morning 2011! hell-OH! :]
so, since we are all getting a new beginning, i was hoping to get my hair fixed *even a little.. it'll cost me several bucks, but what the heck..
just so those people would stop looking at me.
EH* i really don't care if my hair's messy, my face is so oily. so long as i have fresh breath--i really don't care of what i look.
but i guess some people just don't have anything else to do but go looking for other people's flaws.. EH x whatever~
anyway, i'll get my hair straightened out tomorrow. color & shades//probably by summer. jet black & blue streaks x3 *rawr~
and, me enemies? hmmm~ imma still have to think about on what imma do with them. but since they are all quiet for now, let's not bug those jerks. ^^
MORE PATIENCE & a little more hardwork. & since i was already converted-slash-transferred to another LOB *line of business*, & i won't need to take in calls daily (YEAH!!), i can work on my braces. (so i told dad) haha xD
braces. color. AND let's not forget about my piercing plans *smug*
RAWR x3 hello new me!! :] see you around new humans~
^_________^