tatagalugin muna kita

kung hindi mo ba ko naiintindihan, iiwanan mo ko?
siguro nga~
bawal lumapit ang weirdong tulad ko sa normal na tulad niyo..

akala ko pa man din,
di mo na ako iiwan. na wala tayong iwanan.

na bestfriends tayo habambuhay.
na alipin kita kahit magkalayo tayo.

tadhana na ngang sigurong hindi ako mapalapit sainyu~
dahil masama ako.
at weirdo. at baliw.

patawad. sobrang patawad.

kainis.

ayoko pa man mawala ka. ayoko kasi mahalaga ka..
pero ano namang magagawa ko diba??

fairytales? uh-uh.

if cinderella had athlete's foot,

would the prince even let her try the glass slipper?

if snow white had pimples all over her face,

would her prince charming try and kiss her?

if rapunzel was really bald,

would the prince risk his life to go up the tower?

if sleeping beauty had crooked teeth,

would her prince kiss her to wake her up from the eternal sleep?

if ariel never had the sweetest enchanting voice,

won't prince eric be bothered by her fish tail?

this is the reality.

a fairytale is just an illusion for ugly peasants like me.

no prince will pay attention to

an infectioned-foot, pimple-faced, bald-headed,

shark-toothed, tone-deaf half-human half-fish creature..

sleep deprivation

warning! sleep deprivation is dangerous to your health.

*laughs*

now look who's talking.

i only got 4hours of sleep yesterday.

well, this morning.

i slept at around 5am..

^__________^

*sigh*

i'm so tired.

michael catsro [patented]

well. he's all mine now.

hahar~ xD

i already have him patented.

so girls, please.. leave him to me.

so i used to be crushing on his brother jason.

what? he's got such beautiful eyes--and err* voice.

but, when i discovered michael castro.

i mean, he's hot.

and he's totally different from his brother.

what the heck?

he's cool. he's handsome.

and he's a great singer with some cocky attitude.

i so love him!! ♥^^

so--hands off y'all~

the wonder girls~♥

the wonder girls~ see?

aren't they cute?

my favorite is So Hee [ahn so hee]

she's the one in the middle.

and she's only 16.

i'm currently learning the lyrics of their songs.

[tell me, irony & nobody]

i've finished memorizing the song "so hot".

and i'm almost finished studying their dance steps~

i really like them~

i've always dreamt of being in a girl group like theirs

*grins*

good morning sunshine~

errrrr*

where the hell is the big 'ol sun?

nice.

the skies are all cloudy.

the clouds are like big blankets in the sky

that hides our warming sun.

anyway, what the heck?

i just woke up. *laughs*

goodmorning y'all~

*yawns*

2:4o am [nonsense]

i don't know why i'm still blogging right now.

i mean, i should be in my room

working on my comics.

(since i just finished the 3rd batch of shirt designs)

*whew*

but, look at me.

i'm here. and, honestly, i don't have anything to say.

(or type.)

i just felt like i have to blog.

or express my thoughts.

gosh* i don't even know

what i'm thinking and i wanna express my thoughts.

(how clever is that?)

and you know what else is clever??

well, let's just say i do have a diary.

you know. a notebook. a hardcopy version of a blog.

and i'm gonna write there after this.

--and i don't have anything to say!

pssh* this is nonsense.

really~ it's funny a person would read this article.

*laughs*

that would really be funny.

can i be a little selfless?

who wouldn't want to have your friends on your lowest low?

when life is down on you and cuts through you.

no one said life is easy. that's why we have them.

when the worst has come,

of course it's comforting to know

that there are people who will never leave your side.

people who will offer a hand even if your hands are dirty.

who will lend a shoulder even if your head is as heavy as the earth.

who will stay beside you even if a hurricane is on its way to you.

my friends are very good people.

they are human and good in nature.

my friends--they are for keeps.

i love them. and i know, they love me too.

sometimes, i feel like i don't deserve them.

but i am outmost selfish--that's why i keep them.

yes. i am not human.

i am no good. i am selfish.

but at times, i want to do good.
i want to save you from the burden i might cause you.

so, if tomorrow, the ground opens up to eat me,

i would love if my friends would be human enough

to stay away from me and save themselves.

still thinking..

so i'm still thinking on the same thing.

what is good? what is right? what is for the best?

i don't know.

my neurons are pretty functional recently.

but i don't know if their working right.

what do you think?

what should i do?

if you were me?

what would you do?

i think i'll have to do more time,

i'm a bum.

so, i ain't studying at the moment.

ain't working at any fast food chain.

but still working,

t-shirt designs, my scrappy comics.

so working.

a bit.

but, because life has been really kind to me.

ugh* irony isn't my forte.

okay. so i ain't having luck for quite some time.

and i think i'll have to do more time being a bum.

*groans*

and if worse comes to worst.

(like this isn't the worst yet, eh?)

i know word leaks out, dirt spills, rumors spread--

i wouldn't want to bring along my friends with me.

especially when i'm going down the drain..

i know i'm no good.

but it's not like i'm a bad influence.

i just think, that i don't want people,

especially their parents think

that their kids are hanging out

with some loser like me.

that might bring in some trouble--

and i don't want to cause anyone any more trouble.

so, i don't know.

maybe, i might cut off communication for time.

i don't know.

i think that's what's best.

what do you think?

the wonder girls

hahahaha xD

it has been quite a while since

i got hooked in this korean girl group.

especially to one

of their youngest members: So Hee..

(she's only sixteen--accdg. to some source

next time,

i'll post pictures of their group.

if you're interested to--

you might as well download their videos.

"So Hot" , "Irony" & "Tell Me"

are my favorites~!!♥^^

i'm alive~ damn it*

i guess i'm alive after all~

*whew*

but, alipin is still mad.

what good is a second chance when your bestfriend

hates you?

*damn it*

stupid, sickly loser~

i might as well die

if he'll hate me forever.

atleast, maybe,

if i truly die--

he'll be able to forgive me..

1st day of year 2oo9

the year 2oo9 has finally started,

but--why do i feel like my life is about to end?

*groans*

i can't breathe.

like my heart is being crushed inside my chest.

that any moment,

with a sudden shock*

it'll burst out and kill me~

maybe it's because lately,

i always have 2cups of coffee a day.

or, maybe it's because

i eat too much.

i'm not really sure.

all i know is that i can't breathe.

and i feel like dying.

so,

if i die tonight.

please tell prinxipe that i'll always love him.

he'll always be the one.

and, i'm grateful to have met him--my prince.♥

if this'll be my last entry,

then i might as well end it with:

"goodbye~i'll visit you all soon!"

*evil laughter*