sophomore no more

when the semester neared to its end,
i have noticed that shroom distanced from me.
he seldom went to class, & if he did, it'd be short.
he'd be late; then leave early.

i thought t'was all because he's done with his plates.
his requirements all completed.
because that's what he'd tell me~ but then again, i was wrong.

but then, as the last day came,
he decided to go to school a little late. & more~
& it seemed to me like he didn't care whether he sees me or not.
anymore..

i was heartbroken.
WHY? & after days, i re-read a message.
& there he said.

that maybe, if he goes to school,
he'll just get jealous & hurt on what he sees.

i never meant to hurt him.
why would i? i like him.
& he's a close friend, a special one.

days passed.
things has gotten out of hand.
hurtful words came out of his lips.
tearing it's way to my heart.
breaking it to pieces.
*sigh*

& today,
maybe we're a bit okay.
but i know, it can never be like it was before.
it's sad. i just hope that we don't lose the friendship.
i hope to not lose mi shroom~

sophomore no more.
him & i: close friends no more?i can't let that happen.

gewd to be back

will post sooner or later.
internet just came back.
but still, i can't burn all the time sitting infront of this laptop.

but i promise to fill you in on that month that i was away.
okaaaaay? :3

HAH! *long post*

so i used to hate this guy~

whenever i see him, i wanted to:
1. punch him in the face.
2. kick his spleen
3. do numbers 1 and 2 over & over again~

& now,
it's all DIFFERENT.

no, it's not shroom.
but he knows i like this guy.
& this guy knows, too that i like him ~

*SIGH*
it pains me that it pains shroom..
but what can i do?

i still like shroom, but that's the end of it.
i just want us to be close friends.
& honestly, i don't see him & i together more than what we already are.

i feel guilty.
that him & i had to talk about this over & over..
when he told me how different it is now,
i felt guilty.
i didn't mean to lead him on~

*SIGH*
and i do really like this guy.
i remembered back then,

when i wanted to court mr. purple shirt from mapua.
but during my last day, my last chance,
i decided to accompany my doodle instead of taking my chance on him.

& now,
is the second time. yes, i have fallen before.
but never did i felt the urge to court them.
confessed, & got dumped.
but never court them or anything..

but today, with this guy~
i have felt it. i want to court him.
[ i want him ]
& i don't really know why.

so i told this guy that i want to court him~
& he told me he wants to live alone.
>< i asked if he's going to dump me if i court him,
he said he doesn't know..
*does that i mean i still a have chance?*

he said he prioritizes his studies.
so maybe i'll court him after we graduate.
a lot of things can change 2 years from now
. he said his wanting of being alone might get worse.
but it can also change the other way around..
so i'll take my chance >:]



m'sorry shroom.
i really am.. but i will stand true to my promiseto you~
when i asked you if t'was okay if i court him, you said t'was okay.
just as long as things between us don't change~
HAH~

i really really like him. i really do.
he's different in so many ways.
^________^
for now, i'll just be there.

PS:
i don't have a name to call him.
i call him by syllabicating  his name :">
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