i don't understand myself

i've already mentioned about the history of shroom, right?

but up until now, i don't know why it even started.
*laughs* ^^' *sigh*

if you are to ask me, what's with him~
i don't really know what to say.

it's just that, i think about him, most of the time without knowing it.
i miss him at times, especially when he doesn't text me~

but i don't like LIKE him..
*maybe not just yet?* but i don't--right now, i don't.
m'just happy when he's there. haha~

plus, it's funny how m'being really open about what m'feeling towards him.
not just to you, or myself, but even to him.
whenever he asks me, i tell him.
how embarassing, right?
*ugh~ furstrated again, eh?

in the midst of writing a letter

a lot has happened.
i feel like m'lost. but i do know what to do.
& i think i know where to go.
but i don't know how to start though~
so there.

i wrote a superbly long letter to an old bestfriend, alipin.

haha~ *sigh*
a neutral ear to hear my thoughts & feelings.

sulky face~

so this is what i look like when m'trying to be sulky :3

do i look mad? m'trying to be mad & cute there.. haha~

so hard *eep~ >< haha.

coz i thought shroom fell asleep.

truns out he just had to go somewhere & do something.

haha.

still, m'liking this photo very much :3

SUSHI & ONIGIRI

so last sunday, i made some sushis & onigiris....on my nails!

♥^^ *giggles*

here they are. ^_________^

 what to do this coming sunday?

someone requested for monokoro boo!! i hope i can make it :]

so lately :'> shroom~!!

well, lately.
just before xmas break started, i was sort of getting close to this certain guy.
a new classmate. & then a new friend.
who would always contact me for inquiries regarding our plates.
nothing special. so i would answer back.
at school, he'd usually call me by my first name, rather than aya.
he said he preferred it ^^" okay?

so at the last few days, we'd be texting a lot.
asking about our own progress on every plate left.
& then, he'd call. to update or ask.
and that's that.

last day. wednesday..14th of dec, he was sick.
i sort of felt it was me since we'd talk in class..
*i was sick for a week or so~ ^^
so i sort of helped him. he was absent earlier that day.
& we'd update each other til deadline for layout.

when he came, i was at ease.
he was there. for a while, i sat next to him.
on the top of 2 mounts of monoblock chairs ^^
i was comfortable with him.

after that, when him & his friends (including hyung) left,
i sort of *missed him.
got home, hours passed. still thought of him.
& when he texted me mornight, i smiled as he said sorry for being unable to reply & said his goodnight ^^"
I SMILED?! what the heck is going on with me?

reality check: i don't crush on him or anything.
& he's 2 years younger than i am! xP
but i sort of like his company..ugh~
a day went on & he kept on popping in & out of my head like a mushroom.
until given such time that we keep on texting,
& yes, i told him what's happening. haha ^^
*how emabarassing, right?* xD

anyhow, up until now, we'd talk every now & then. *most of the time*
sometimes, he would even call me :'>
haha~ i like talking to him.
..i wonder if we'll still be this way in person..

*sigh* anyway,
m'happy to make a new friend like him. [s.s]
haha~ but i don't think we'd be as close as i am with doodle, or alipin,
or even hyung.. that's gotta be hard if i do that.
i mean, m'too attached to a lot of people lately.
i can't be with him like that.
not that i don't like him or anything. ^^"
it's just going to be too risky on my part.


i'll end it right here.
haha~ SHROOM~!

still owe you that time pent shortly with doodle ^^'

new piercings~ >:]

my new piercings~ FINALLY >:]
since the day i learned that i can't have a tattoo (religion.wise),
i decided i'll just have additional piercings..

after consultation with dad & having approval from him & mom,
i was already ecstatic of the thought.

& then a while ago, after watching movie at sm manila
with ar.em & kalok. & then ar.em & i strolled around,
we thought i should get my piercings.
& as quick as that they got it on~

2 add'l piercings on my left ear.
AWESOME.
although, it got red & hot right after..
s'okay. m'okay.

but, that isn't the CLIMAX of today~
^____________^
see that grin?
i'll post it on some other time *laughs*

wacky faces

so mia introduced me to this site the other day,
cameroid.com
it allows you to play with your webcam
*with ready.made effects*

mia & i were making goofy faces on the cam
when mom suddenly got closer to take a picture with us.
LOOK :]

mom. me. mia.

cute, eh? ^_____^
haha~ i like me here. i just shook my hair from a ponytail,
& that;s the best my face can get ^^"

i got ladybugs eating my nails

so i had to cut my nails really short after i saw a long crack on my left thumb T^T
they say it's okay though, i could still paint it cute~ & they actually like this. ^^"

anyhow, m'changing it later on..
*what to do next? panda? watermelon? newsprint?

still undecided >____<