i hate the distance

*eish

i can't surf the net at home..
and i hate the distance growing between you and me.

my blog is flooded with my open letters for you

and to think that i shouldn't be worried too much about you
'cause i've got a lot of bigger problems..

*like how am i supposed to get myself enrolled next school year
*what should i do to stop my mom from flying to NY
*how do i get you-know-who out of our house

UGH~
i'm losing my focus coz of you
*sigh*
why is it that losing your bestfriend makes you feel 1ox worse than getting rejected by your loved one?
eh* can someone tell me?

you'll know when i'm falling,

'cause if that ever happens..
i'll leave on my own~

so please don't leave me now.
beause i need you here by my side.
i need you so i can be strong.
because i'm not yet ready.

because, honestly,

i still love him.
and you know you're the only one who knows what i really feel.
and whenever i'm next to you,
i forget about him..

so don't leave me..