23 February 2009

a personal letter addressed to nobody

"dearest blog,
i just wrote to you.
'cause i'm currently mentally and emotionally unstable.

this past few nights,
i've been feeling bad.
about myself. about my life.

well, it's not like it's a new feeling.
i've always looked down on myself.
and feeling sad is just a daily routine.

but tonight, i don't know.
just before the movie i was watching ended,
i just cried. it's not like its a sad story..
i don't really know why i'm crying.

i know there's a reason.
i just can't figure what its specifically is.
it may have been triggered by one scene.
one subtle, sad scene.

and then, i just broke down.
you may think i'm stupid.
i know. i think so too~

sorry for writing nonsense tonight.
but this crapload, i just can't bear alone.

i wish to feel better.
if not, at least a bit lighter than this deep depression
that is drowning me in.."
*sigh*

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