people change.

it's true. people do.
may i not be human--but was i never incapable of change.
and so i did.

now, i am finally in my third year.

hopefully, will i not have to stop so i can graduate in 2 years.
& yea~ m'still a scholar [still partial though, but good enough]

i have finally let go of my feelings for shroom.
for the better. for both of us.

unfortunately, when classes kicked back in,

& he saw me. he told me.

that he realized how important i was for him.

my worth. & that,
he wants me back.

but, i told him it's never gonna happen.

i can't. we can't.
it's best if we stay friends. no more, no less.

& with this, i'll have to stand strong.
but i've been feeling guilty.
for it feels like a never-ending heartbreak for him.

and as if it wasn't enough,
je.ro.me would push me away.
away from him & back to shroom~

heartbreaking, indeed.
it was already painful that he does not have any interest in me.
[though i find comfort that he doesn't have anything for anyone]

STILL, whenever he mentions shroom.
it hurts. *sigh*

i can't blame him though.
for one, he doesn't know EVEYRTHING that has happened

between shroom & i.
second, he's his friend.

anyhow, i still enjoy being in his class.
the chance to be seeing je.ro.me, and sometimes sitting with him in class.
i find happiness with him, effortlessly.

*SIGH*
i missed writing here.
yet, i have to cut this for now.
currently working on papers--ms word,
not working with me..