in RED for so long..i need to go GREEN.

i was reading stuff the other night,

     my stuff.
and then it hit me~

how come i've stopped myself?

he would ask me every now and then.
i never absorbed the question..

until now.

why did i stop?

from writing, from drawing, from painting, from learning, from pushing myself.

i would always tell myself,

"studies first. i need to focus and graduate, and then i'll do it again"

why haven't i found time to do it?

how come other people can juggle everything?

oh, right.
[ i am too afraid of failing, of failure, of disappointment. ]

i envy people who have guts.

who have courage to risk it.

who have the strength to push themselves.

what is wrong with me?

i have been in under the red light for so long.

i have to change it to green, and start moving.