who are you?

that night, when you first stole him from me,
was the first time you superbly hurt me.
& then, it never came to an end.

but i had to endure.
because you are my bestfriend.
and because i love you.

little did i know, that things would go from bad to HELL.

but i had to accept it.
because you are my bestfriend.
and because i love you.

& then, more shit came.
& i couldn't stop myself from going berserk*
i said words. i did things.
PAIN was excruciating.

but it only lasted for 2 hours.
i had to overcome it.
& decided to be okay with everything else..

 then, i was okay.
because you are my bestfriend.
and because i love you.

but it pains me..

that you always had time for him than for me.
that you could always text him to meet him up,
but never had to ask me "what's up?"
that you'd reply to his invites but never to my texts of desperation..

it was painful because of that.
not because he likes you.


AND NOW.
who are you? where'd you take my bestfriend?
where did she go? what did you do to her?
i don't know you anymore..
T____T
it pains me....
that you don't care about me anymore.