I MUST BE CRAZY~

yes, it is true.

my sanity needs to be tested.

against all odds, i still can't stop myself from falling for you.

if we look at it a normal perspective—

from a commoner's point of view,

you are wise while i am in no comparison to your intelligence.

you are talented whereas i am just an average.

and i choose not to compare myself with the other girls.

for i don't believe that i have an edge.

i have low self esteem though it's just about the physical,

otherwise, it does not matter to me.

and your decision to go solo—it is solid.

i can feel how serious you are with it,

yet i can neither change what i feel nor you stance.

and i must feel defeated, but i don't.

but there is pain. oh yes, there is.

and it stings whenever you tell me to not feel.

and how hard is it to fall for a person with a completely different belief?

my religion tells me i cannot be with a non.muslim.

and whenever i am reminded of that, it hurts like hell.

oh shoot~ must i be inlove?

i have thought of it, A LOT.

and even when i still liked your friend.

but i told myself, i will not fall. not until i know you're there.

but was i just fooling myself?

i have never thought of men that way—

of living a life with one.

and i wonder, why of all people,

you were the only one i reconsidered.

i can not deny how i feel for you.

although i'm not sure how deep i have already fallen.

but no, i should not know yet—

because it will bring more pain.

because whenever i imagine that i can never be with you,

my heart panics and my body starts to collapse.

i feel that i wouldn't want to be with anybody else.

and i will live my life like how you want to live yours, ALONE.

i must be...