"o n i g i r i ~" says the hamster

i told myself before, that i would write an entry about you—because you have marked my life. you’ve been really nice, and kind, and caring.. and because you have always been there for me, to lend your virtual ears to listen to me rant, your virtual shoulders when I am to cry—your SELF, when i need someone.

but i never got the chance.

and i can’t believe that it is only now that I could say some of the points that I appreciate about you. now when everything’s worse than the usual blur.

i want you to know, that m’very much thankful for those nonstop conversations we had. and your fair judgment over the things i tell you about. and your optismistic eye on every down low i had.

and how I so wish we never had to stop.

and m’very sorry. sorry if you broke your 5-year wall because of me. sorry because you had to be in this unstoppable rollercoaster ride because of me. sorry if i wasn’t able to really make time for us to talk—i tried, honestly, maybe you just didn’t see.

what i hope for, is probably more than too much to ask for:

but i still hope that we can be friends, someday.

and i can’t help but still think and worry about you.

and be guilty of whatever happens to you

(although, i can hear you in my head, telling me not to, is that weird?)

thank you for everything.

for every single and little thing.

and m’sorry, because i can’t be more than just your broken routine.

PS: you’re kind, you’re smart, you’re talented, you’re cute as an onigiri—you’re everything a person can ask for (and more). it’s just, maybe, m’not the one for you.

be happy, like your usual  o n i g i r i  happy.

and m’just here, scurrying around, like the  h a m st e r  you see of me.